Buff-date

Buff-date?  It's where getting buff meets having an online update.

This week, I was doing plank push ups with Igor, and I started crying while doing them.  I was getting frustrated because I felt weak, and I was angry because I want to continue to be the child, and not the adult child who has to make decisions.  So we sat for the last part of our session and talked.  Which is probably more of what I needed in that moment. 

On Monday I have a workout with hottie Brandon.  He called me Thursday evening about it and instead of saying "hello" he said, "Are you ready to put your money where your mouth is?"  I was like, umm that depends on who this is!  I just wasn't sure who it was at first!  Oh my.  So hopefully that goes well.

Thursday night I had food poisoning and I laid around all day on Friday and slept and felt awful.  But I feel better now.  I was so dehydrated.  Ugg.  I just can't stay healthy.  It's ridiculous.

I think it's just when I am by myself that I realize how unhappy I am.  Surprisingly, being around people makes me feel better, and keeps me busy enough to not have to think about things.  Ridiculous.  It's been a cold spring so far.  It's hard to gear up.  I think I want to paint my bedroom today, but I feel undecided, so I'm having trouble committing to that idea.  If I'm going to do it, I should do it now.