Today my Achilles felt pretty good, so I decided I would try to run a little bit. I mostly walked at an incline, and then would run for two minutes, and then walked more, and then ran again. I went for 65 minutes altogether. I just did a slow jog, because today was not about setting some new record. It was about seeing how I was feeling. But it's weird how I didn't really get that feel better feeling.
And I was thinking as I was on the treadmill, doing the same thing that I always do, that I still kind of live in fear when it comes to using the gym equipment. I've been there for the past year and a half and I know how to use lots of different machines, but when it comes to doing it on my own, I still get nervous and feel embarrassed. I don't want to be like that. I don't know why I have so much anxiety about it. It's one thing to have the trainer tell me what to do, and I don't look stupid because they are telling me what to do. I guess I still feel like I look stupid when I am doing it on my own. That's so very very silly. I really just need a buddy. Oh how I long for female companionship....
Today's success: Running a little bit and not having it hurt. Being in control enough to not over do it and hurt myself again.
Today's setbacks: Feeling negative about self image. I have the world's biggest calves, and I am so not in love with them right now. Much, much, much too big.
I know, that's why I hate inclines, it seems like they make your calves bigger!
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