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I've just been sitting here thinking.  I'm not sure what to title this entry, or what I even have to say about today.  I try to be optimistic about what I am writing in here, and I try to have hope, and I want to be hopeful, but I don't really feel too hopeful.  If I say enough positive things, even though I don't believe them, eventually they have to start to feel true too.  Right?  How long does that take?

Did the stairs today.  Still sick of them, but I love how much I sweat and how many calories I burn.  I did intervals of 4 minutes moderate pace, and one minute hard pace for 35 minutes.  I decided not to wear my heart rate monitor because I was tired of being trapped in time.  I needed a little freedom.  I think I might have broken my cell phone headphones by wearing them while working out.  Crap. 

I bought yoga stretch bands, and did use them tonight.  Best supine hamstring stretch ever.  And a new pair of workout capris.  It's been an hour now, and I still haven't really said anything worthwhile I guess.  I'm currently searching for an aerobic step.  They are freaking expensive though!  The ones that are less expensive come in purple, which I hate.  I refuse to have a purple step in my home. 

Today's success: Feeling happy during the go go go part of the day.  Working out.  Eating okish.  No cookies at least.  I also did well for dinner. Learning to be blunt and honest.  Attempting to be hopeful and encouraged.
Today's setbacks: Constantly being too hard on myself.  Feeling sore throughout my back, arms, and shoulders.  Not really actually feeling hopeful and encouraged.