My neck is so messed up, and I have a pretty sweet knot worked up in my back. I was all delirious this afternoon and turned my head normally to the right and it totally spazzed out. I think tomorrow I'm actually going to go and treat myself to a massage. I'm all stressed out from work and life and everything.
I cried on the way home today. Sad things happening and occurring right now. Who cares. I'm currently doing a sea salt soak on it.
I think the reason why I like personal training so much is because I get to talk to someone. I get to be gross and sweaty and not think and be told what to do for an hour. And then at the end we stretch, and physical contact is something we all long for. It's not sexual or inappropriate, but it's nice to have some contact with people.
I'm completely exhausted. Only one more day. I should get to leave early tomorrow from work. I hope that actually happens. Thank goodness for a short week. This is probably the most boring post I've ever written. I'm sad, and sort of trying to be optimistic, but it isn't really working.
An important lesson I have been told recently, and forgotten, and then reminded of is that I have to learn how to let things go. I have to learn how to let inappropriate stuff roll off of me, and how to let go of that which I find hurtful or inappropriate. It's hard for me. Everything sticks and is painful. I know this lesson, but I don't know how to enforce it at all.
Sleepy now.
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