I think I finally have it figured out and I'm not high to forget it or high to think it's funny or high to change the subject.
How can I respect her, when all I have ever seen her do is make shitty decisions.
Dad is dying in the hospital and I can't change anything, and I am going to not listen to your advice and I am going to go against everything that everyone is saying, and I am going to move back home and we are going to do it tonight. Even though that means that if anything happens, we will be an hour away from all medical treatments and we will have to have transportation come to us, which will take x amount of time if there is an emergency. Amazing decision.
I am going to never listen to anything you have to say and I am going to try to force you to be just like me. I am a stupid fucking bitch who can't communicate, who bottles up their feelings and won't even tell you when I am hungry or that I want things.
I have to be the host? Fuck you. The only reason you are here is because I was going to be incapacitated to the point that I was unable to drive. I didn't even ask you to come here. You just volunteered. That does not make me a host. I am not hosting you. You are my family. Get the fuck over yourself.
I hate you. I have always hated you, and for that matter, it should have been you. We could all get along just fine without you, but we can't without him.
How can I possibly respect you when I think you are stupid? Awesome. FML
